To Love or To Leave
“To be or not to be, that is the question:
Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them.”
Hamlet Act III, Scene I, Lines 55-59
To love or to leave, that is the question: Whether it is more sublime for the mind to bear the heaviness of the heart or to uphold courage to take one step back.
To love is to wait. But how much time are you willing to spend or waste for that elusive chance? Until all hopes are gone? An eternity? Or maybe after a thousand missed opportunities. Give it ample time but be careful not to get stuck. Remember that the world goes on whether you decide to move along or stay still. Do not be like Pluto, orbiting around the faraway Sun that barely gives it light and warmth. You have a choice. Do not numb yourself in waiting. What you’re waiting for may arrive but what if by the time you have it, you realize that it wasn’t worth the wait after all? So you get what you thought you’ve always wanted… and you end up frustrated ’cause suddenly, you don’t like it anymore.
If you’re not choosing to wait, you’re most probably choosing to leave. And to leave means to try to forget. You cannot forget, that’s for sure. You could only go as far as trying to forget the most cherished “what-once-was” and the well-imagined “could-have-beens.” Whatever you do, there would always be places and things that would remind you of what you’re trying to forget. Every time it would cross your mind, it would hurt– but it’s the kind of pain that is tinged with love. And somehow, that fact drives you insane. Leaving and trying to forget are friends with resentment; Resentment is the twin of Regret. When you decide to just leave and forget, it only means you haven’t forgiven the circumstance… you haven’t forgiven yourself.
It takes an equal amount of courage to try harder and to give up. Would it be easier to wait or to forget? Would it be better to love or to leave?
I’d choose to leave while there is still love.